Is your body trying to tell you something?
If you are like most people who have a highly sensitive
nervous system (actually like most people on the planet),
we stockpile our emotions.
We don't look at what is really going on for us. We do
this unconsciously because we don't want to feel pain.
This last week my family and I went to Avon, Colorado
to get away, connect and heal from the loss of daughter,
Maddie, who passed away unexpectedly from a cystic
fibrosis exacerbation of double pneumonia.
What used to be my and Maddie's favorite month, October,
turned into a true nightmare for us.
While we were in Colorado, my daughter, Chelsea, and I
we playing ping pong.
The ping pong table was located in a poorly positioned spot right
underneath a stairwell.
Chelsea hit the ball to me and it went sailing off to the floor.
So I quickly turned and bent over to retrieve it, stood up, and
hit my head REALLY hard on the steal beam of the stairwell.
I immediately dropped to my knees into a fetal position, because
it hurt so bad. Steve, Chelsea, and her boyfriend, Brandon,
rushed over to where I was crouched on the floor.
My head was bleeding, and that scared me. The good news was
that I wasn't dizzy and I could answer their questions to make sure
I was aware and making sense of reality.
Brandon ran upstairs to our room to get me essential oils and
colloidal silver which I promptly applied to the cut on my head.
Then I started to sob, "I miss her so much! It's not fair that she
left us so young...." I guess I'd been holding back my feelings
in order to protect my family and be strong for them.
The whack on my head wasn't going to let me continue to ignore
my feelings though. Even though I'd done a lot of crying, I had stopped
my daily routine of tapping on my feelings.
When the pain continued to throb in my head, I reluctantly asked
for 2 Excedrin. Then Chelsea actually took 5 minutes to walk me
through a round of tapping on how I felt.
Then we sat in the hot tub to help me relax. When we got back to
the room, I rinsed the blood from my hair.
The next day when I woke up, all I had was a small scab, a little
soreness if I rubbed my head, and not even a bump. I told them,
"Man, I have a hard head!"
The moral of this story is that we need to acknowledge and feel
our feelings to release the pent up emotions.
Otherwise, the body will try to "get our attention" and release for
us, perhaps through an accident like I had.
We've become masters of avoiding what's really going on for us.
Our hectic lifestyles betray us by preventing us from deeply
connecting with ourselves and others.
To do this, we need to FEEL and be okay with a huge myriad
of emotions. Even grief can allow us to feel more alive than
If you want to FEEL and are ready for deep connection with
others, come to our 11/30 Transformation Game at 5pm.
Maddie passed away on 10/26 when we'd planned a Transformation
Game. She definitely transformed but not in the way we hoped for.
So we've re-scheduled it to 11/30 and will be having it in honor of
Maddie Jo Reynolds. Register here.
If you are used to running around and being busy, and
stockpiling your emotions.