Are you with me?

As I awoke yesterday morning I realized how much I've been "holding on" to what people expect me to be and therefore holding myself back. Can you relate?

You see, my role as a marketing and social media person has thrust me into a whole new level of
discomfort and, dare I say, feeling of incongruence!

Each day I attempt to send you some useful nugget of information, humor, inspirational  story, or tip that
may brighten YOUR life or lighten your load.

My intentions are pure, though I struggle with feeling like I MUST create something new and exciting or else I'm not doing a good enough job.  This makes me feel inadequate!  

To make matters worse, I start thinking of all the things on my to-do list and all of my weakness....

That's right I am officially admitting to YOU and the world, I have weaknesses! :)  I know it is likely evident to everyone except myself, but now, it is in writing!  Phew! I feel better already.

Do you struggle with thoughts like these or am I alone??

As I was sharing my thoughts and feelings with Angie today, she urged me to attend one of her upcoming events called the "Whole Soul Intensive." As much as I have been resistant to re-attending, I think this could help me get out of my funk!

If there is one thing I have learned from being in the life coaching business it's that I can't outrun the thoughts in my head, nor should I try to suppress my past!

Trust me I have tried!

I don't know about you, but I am beyond frustrated with creating the same recurring themes and results brought about by my insane thinking!

Even though It scares the heck out of me to be writing this, there is a part of me which knows I need it badly.

"Please don't judge me" comes to mind, not to mention the shame of shattering the illusion of the "image" I've been trying to protect.

While "stuck" pondering these thoughts, it feels like all others seem to have it together.

Knowing that most people RUN from change like the plague, it is quite obvious why I have repressed my past and sought refuge in my lifestyle.

By watching sports, having some cold one's, gambling, playing video games, etc....it helps me to "feel better" and escape my reality!

What is in your "reality" that you don't like?

If you have too much on your plate and you feel trapped by your circumstances, just know you are NOT alone!

PS) I'd love to know that I am writing to an audience of real people. If you have time, drop me a line back!  I would greatly appreciate you for it!

Take care,

Steve Monko