As I awoke yesterday morning I realized how much I've
been "holding on" to what people expect me to be and
therefore holding myself back. Can you relate?
You see, my role as a marketing and social media
person has thrust me into a whole new level of
discomfort and, dare I say, feeling of incongruence!
Each day I attempt to send you some useful nugget
of information, humor, inspirational story, or tip that
may brighten YOUR life or lighten your load.
My intentions are pure, though I struggle with feeling
like I MUST create something new and exciting or else
I'm not doing a good enough job. This makes me feel
To make matters worse, I start thinking of all the things
on my to-do list and all of my weakness....
That's right I am officially admitting to YOU and the world,
I have weaknesses! :) I know it is likely evident to everyone
except myself, but now, it is in writing! Phew! I feel better
Do you struggle with thoughts like these or am I alone??
As I was sharing my thoughts and feelings with Angie today,
she urged me to attend one of her upcoming events called
the "Whole Soul Intensive." As much as I have been
resistant to re-attending, I think this could help me get out
of my funk!
If there is one thing I have learned from being in the life
coaching business it's that I can't outrun the thoughts in
my head, nor should I try to suppress my past!
Trust me I have tried!
I don't know about you, but I am beyond frustrated with
creating the same recurring themes and results brought
about by my insane thinking!
Even though It scares the heck out of me to be writing this,
there is a part of me which knows I need it badly.
"Please don't judge me" comes to mind, not to mention the shame
of shattering the illusion of the "image" I've been trying to protect.
While "stuck" pondering these thoughts, it feels like all others seem
to have it together.
Knowing that most people RUN from change like the plague, it is quite
obvious why I have repressed my past and sought refuge in my lifestyle.
By watching sports, having some cold one's, gambling, playing video
games, etc....it helps me to "feel better" and escape my reality!
What is in your "reality" that you don't like?
If you have too much on your plate and you feel trapped by your
circumstances, just know you are NOT alone!
PS) I'd love to know that I am writing to an audience of real people.
If you have time, drop me a line back! I would greatly appreciate
you for it!