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Are you ready to stop numbing?

Angie Monko - Tuesday, August 08, 2017

How do you feel right now? Do you notice any
pain in your body, any tightness? Do you hunch 
your shoulders and wear them like earrings?

Our bodies, much like our emotions, will tell us a
story if we will but listen. They will tell us where we've
gotten off track emotionally and mentally, which 
always guides our physical actions.

Let me tell you a story. I have a mild pain in my neck
and tightness in my shoulders, and I'm at least 20 
pounds overnight.  So I asked my body, "What do 
you want me to know?"

I began tapping with emotional freedom technique
to learn more. Here are the beliefs I uncovered:

1) It's not safe to slow down.
2) I want to be busy and scheduled.
3) It's not safe to relax because the other shoe will drop.
4) I can allow only so much joy and pleasure in my 
life because if I do, I will lose them.
5) Feeling a great deal of joy and then disappointment is
a much worse fall then feeling numb all of the time. So 
I choose the latter.
6) I'll be abandoned if I relax and slow down.

What in the world does the last belief mean? Well, 
when I was 6 years old, I was staying all night at my
cousin's, having fun and being carefree, like many
6-year-old kids do.

I got a phone call from my mom, telling me my Aunt
Elaine had died. What?! She was only 16 years old
and my best friend. She'd always hang out with me
and take me places. We were both born on 9/23.

She had been diagnosed with a breast tumor two
weeks earlier, and now she was gone. I then witnessed
my family, including my grandma (Elaine's mother) who
babysat for me daily, go into a dark depression. And no
one was talking about their feelings and grief.

I just connected the dots on why it doesn't feel safe for 
me to relax and have fun more than I do. If I have too
joy and pleasure and success, and relax too much, then
I might get blind-sided with loss and grief, and thus feel
abandoned. 

If I keep myself protected by being serious and 
somewhat numb, I won't be as hurt when the blows
of life hit.

Do you ever find yourself numbing the pain through
alcohol, drugs, food, excessive busy-ness, sex, chaos,
shopping, perfectionism, care-taking, relationships, money,
Facebook, you name it?

We've all done this and quite regularly.  It's just that most
of us are not aware to the extent we do it, and we definitely
aren't aware of how it's impacting our lives.

For me, the biggest negative side effect of numbing is that 
it numbs out ALL emotion, including JOY and love and peace.
JOY is the most vulnerable of all emotions, and now I'm sure
that makes sense after reading my story above.

Are you ready to stop numbing?  If I'm totally honest, then
the answer for me right now is NO.  I don't think we ever 
totally stop this behavior because I don't think any of us is
every totally conscious of what's really going on in our lives.

If we're not aware, we can't stop doing something. But even
if we ARE aware, numbing is an effective coping mechanism.
There's no point in feeling guilty about doing it. 

Instead, what if you just stated to Life, "I'd like to fully live. I'm
ready to stop numbing the pain.  Please give me the willingness
to really FEEL and take risks to increase my joyful experience
of life!"

Next Step: Join me for a Facebook Live video in which Chelsea
Dickinson and I will be discussing this topic this Thursday at 
3:30pm Central Time.
We will do some tapping around numbing
and how to stop it.

If you want to join me for the monthly Frontier to Freedom tapping
class later that same day at my home at 6pm, please reply to this
email to receive more details (2 spots left).

Supporting you all the way,

Angie Monko

Comments
Dana Rich commented on 10-Aug-2017 02:03 PM
I really enjoyed this blog! As I read it I went, “Ahhhh that’s why Angie behaves the way she does sometimes!” It was really cool to see the underneath reasons of why you hesitate at times to just let go and have fun. :)
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing that with us as it helps us to open up and be more honest with and about ourselves.
Thank you!
Dana


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